Dysfunctional Dreamer

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Somedays, I think the weather is as bleak as my mood. I don't know what's wrong, I don't know what to do and certainly don't know how to fix it.

In my head, nothing makes sense anymore, so why bother talking?

posted by nori_b @ 2:32 PM 0 comments

Lazyday Bug

I've been having lots of lazydays recently. Not having to work during the week because they don't need the extra hand is putting me back to working just on weekends. Hey, I shouldn't complain, really. But the extra moolah is desperately needed, and hell, the only luxury I have is in cooking and food. Well, and now books, which I can read (the usual chicklit fiction- cmon, it's camberwell library, what did you expect???)

However, I did find a Jeanette Winterson book, having skimmed through the shelves of the library out of curiousity and boredom. Unfortunately(?), she is a lesbian writer, supposedly obsessed with affairs with married women. But that aside, the writing's beautiful. *sigh*...does that mean I'm crossing over to the other side..? I hope not!

So, anyway, I'd be starting to read her very first novel-'Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit' soon. I have 'The Powerbook' at home, a gem which I found in a charity shop, couldn't help but read over and over again. So I'm sure am trying to contain myself, I'm sure I'm in for a promising read!

Got to go home now, something sinister is going on again, and two people have already checked for my safety....gonna catch up on the news. I'm leaving you today with a quote from the woman herself. Enjoy.

"Love is the only thing stronger than desire and the only proper reason to resist temptation" - Jeanette winterson

posted by nori_b @ 1:39 PM 0 comments

The Bigger Picture

If anyone ever asks me about my relationship with Mr P, it is just like it is on the picture, we're (cartoons)?...No, I'm kidding - we try not to take ourselves seriously, both with our spastic sense of humour, we always have a laugh (don't we?). Our conversations have given birth to many drawings which I have done in my little sketch book lately, and I'm sure for many more to come! This is just the tip of the iceberg! (:

posted by nori_b @ 4:07 PM 0 comments

Return To Sender

I've been posting a lot, lately....not just snail mail, but also emails..although sometimes I think it a waste of effort, as I can never get a reply no matter how long I wait. Perhaps it is the curse that I try so hard to keep in touch with people, who, simply, don't have time for me!
*sigh*. But if I don't try, they would blame it on my non-effort. But who's to blame, really? What's the point in trying, when the effort is only one-sided and let me tell you...it gets pretty trying at times! AAAAArrrghhhh!!!

I've been missing so many people lately, but most of all, Viqui...I could really do with her smiles and laughter in the shop these days...Pity though, all the photos we took together and not a single one of them is clear! But after scouring through the pile...these seem to be the only decent ones which you can make out our faces, at least... (:

posted by nori_b @ 3:26 PM 0 comments

It's Just The Smallest Gestures...

That make all the difference. I came home from work last Saturday, to find a cake in the fridge waiting for me, courtesy of dearest Mr P (A recipe his mom used to make, from chocolate biscuits and cream). I just had to stand in front of it, admiring his handiwork and grin to myself. Nobody's ever made anything for me before, at least not unless I asked for it, which doesn't feel as significant. So I had to photograph the moment, the cake in all it's glory, before we devoured it in the next 3-4 days(Which will explain our ballooning figures, we reckon we've gained 2kg each, with all that consumption of cream). Thank you, you have no idea how overwhelmed I am, o retardu! Lots of kisses coming your way! (:


*Kinda looks like tiramisu, aye? (: ((Don't worry, Susan, your tiramisu is still the best, because it's the only customised non-alcoholic recipe I know! *wink*))

posted by nori_b @ 12:55 PM 0 comments

Deserted Toy Shop

So, life went back to normal on Friday- no matter how much we insisted that we didn't want to turn up for work, we had to persist, since we can't stay in fear forever. The buses started working again, so did the tubes, and trains(all of them shut down on Thusday, for fear of more bombs on each one).

So Friday, in Covent Garden-usually buzzing with life was nothing resembling it's usual self, but a long forgotten town instead. So, as usual, we tried to make full use of our time....seriously, we *were* working...it's just that...we ended up concentrating too much on product knowledge...? We were *very* into it, couldn't you tell??? (:

Pic1TL: Using our imaginations-Mickey Bubble!
Pic2TP: Tina is trying out the magic-bubble..ooo...biggaaa!
Pic3BL: Misao modelling our new Spring/Summer bubblewear.
Pic4BR: This one is tricky-I don't know why Hector looks so pleased with the snot in his nose...hee hee!

posted by nori_b @ 3:44 PM 0 comments

It's Been A Week Since...

The bombings on Thursday. An experience I will never forget. Although I was not close enough to feel the whole impact of the reality of the bombings, it was a close enough brush with it to leave me shaken for awhile. I started off the day, as usual, working, but we decided that it was a little quiet in central London for a Thursday morning. I just thought my stupid phone was acting up, when I tried to text Yuko to tell her that I would be late- the traffic was horrible(something I overlooked as well), turns out that it was the slow beginnings of a bigger event that was to loom on London. Someone who used to work at the shop called us, advising us to check with Mr Basil(the big boss) if we could shut the shop, since 6 bombs have already gone off all around central London. You can imagine the shock we were in when we heard it! We did our best not to panic, but it's hard when even calling your loved ones to check they're okay is almost impossible, with the network being down as well. After several attempts, got in touch with Paolo, my parents(who were freaking out, and were freaking me out in the process..geez..that sure didn't help!), my friends...decided a plan of action and set myself up mentally for the long journey home-by foot. Imagine, from zone 1 to zone 3. Seesh..

Met up with Paolo on the Waterloo Bridge, making sure we're all in one piece...a quick hug and reassurance, in the pouring rain,..and since there was no way he could get out of work (seeing that he works 5 mins from where they had bombed Liverpool St Station), my heart was constantly in jitters. As for me, I trudged slowly in the rain, cold, drenched and tired. Thank you for all your texts and emails, my friends...Nothing could have made my day better, knowing that people far away do care. As I said, life's back to normal now, except for the families of the victims of the bombings and those injured severely. My heart goes out to them. The news is still making headlines, while the people who were supposedly responsible for the monsterous acts are under investigation. It has been a bleak week, indeed.


*Alas, all that is left of the day is dust/sand/debri in my jeans...

posted by nori_b @ 3:15 PM 0 comments

For The People...

Who were worried about me last thursday, thank you for your concern, it's nice to know that people still care.
For those who didn't get in touch..well, I don't know what to say. To me, it says a lot..or maybe I'm just paranoid. ):

Anyways, life goes on, except that Central London has turned into a ghost-town,so it's pretty scary, still. Otherwise, everything is going back to normal.

Went to see the Frida Kahlo exhibition yesterday, with my friend, Cassie, and it turned out to be such a lovely afternoon, sunshine, good lunch,....nice walk by the river, and laughs.

The exhibition costed me £8, but it was worth it! There is an excerpt on one of the walls that particularly struck a chord with me, and I want to share...so here it is:

"A few days ago, I was a little girl who walked though a world of colours, of hard and tangible forms. Everything was mysterious and concealed something; I took pleasure in deciphering, in learning, as in a game. If only you knew how terrible it is suddenly to know everything, as if a flash of lightning lit up the earth. Now I live on a sorrowful planet, transparent as ice; but which conceals nothing, it's as if I had learned everything in seconds, all at once. My girlfriends, my companions have slowly become women, I grew up in a few instants and today everything is pliant and lucid. I know there is nothing behind, if there were I would see it."

posted by nori_b @ 2:17 PM 0 comments