Dysfunctional Dreamer

And From Here I Continue My Journey...

I apologize for not writing sooner...
There has been so much going on, and with the computer systems down in the halls the last week, it's been so hard to do anything at all. I *may* get cable soon, so I can use the internet from the comforts of my room.

I got a "good" for my last assessment, and it's one grade below "outstanding" (which, should be Ok...*BUT* it's also one grade above "satisfactory"....*sigh*.Personally,I'm not too happy with it. Yesterday was our second assessment for our 3centimetercube project, and I stayed up all of the night (and slept all of 3 hours) to finish my final piece, which is a painting...perhaps, I'll post a photo of it up when I get it back. (:

School has been so hectic, but sometimes, I feel so lost in which direction I should go for my projects. Thank god Peter, my tutor is god-sent...he's been so patient and undersanding..as well as encouraging.

I feel like I've got a little "family" here now, on the floor which I live on, because when I was sick for the past week, Saka and Shin were so nice to make me congee for dinner, and asked me if I needed them to get anything from the shops for me. It's times like these I miss my mum the most, but she should be glad that the people here are treating me very well. We're going to have a mini dinner party at the end of the week, and we're gonna cook something nice, eat together and chill. Saka's going to make some japanese food, and I have to carefully plan what to cook. It's quite hard now, with the fasting month already here, and it's harder when it's cold and you're hungry all the time. But thank god, the days are shorter, so I only fast from about 6:45am to maybe 4:50pm. (:
I've survived so far...

School Matters:

WAS sitting with: Suhail (Sal)
IS sitting with now: Lee Peters and Andrea Edwards

I moved from the seat with Sal coz he was coughing too much, and frankly, when someone does that and doesn't bother to cover their mouth, it's terribly DISgusting! I'm just afraid long term, I might just catch something from him, so it's for my own good. He was beginning to annoy me anyways, with his coughing and smoking (and he has asthma...he should really quit) and well, he's so distracting, asking silly questions everytime I'm trying to do my project. He's 31, but what the hell is he doing in foundation man!?!!

Moved to the front desk where Andrea and Lee are sitting, because Andrea knows of my predicament,and she invited me to move. We got on so well as a table that they asked me to stay. Lee actually went like "can we keep you?" aw...he's so sweet, (although sometimes he gives me the creeps the way he watches me do my work) but I've been sitting there since. He smells pretty soapy and nice, so I forgive him. (:

will be continued.

posted by nori_b @ 2:03 PM 0 comments

*sigh*...

Cold Cold Heart

I've tried so hard my dear to show
That you're my every dream
Yet you're afraid each thing I do
Is just some evil scheme

A memory from your lonesome past
Keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
And melt your cold cold heart

Another love before my time
Made your heart sad and blue
And so my heart is paying now
For things I didn't do

In anger unkind words are said
That make the teardrops start
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
And melt your cold cold heart

There was a time when I believed
That you belonged to me
But now I know your heart is shackled
To a memory

The more I learn to care for you
The more we drift apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
And melt your cold cold heart

Listening to :
Norah Jones

posted by nori_b @ 10:20 PM 0 comments

All Time Low

I thought for a moment I was happy.I was, truly. I mean, it's all I could ask for to be here, and live my dream. But suddenly something just hits me and fucks up my mind. Maybe it's because I was ill yesterday...but then again, I've nobody to blame but myself. The realization that perhaps, I am truly lonely. Even with the loads of people around.

There was a movie I watched with some people yesterday "I Shot Andy Warhol"...and it was good,...and later on it was "American History X", which had Edward Northon, but I doubt it'll even be shown in Singapore, coz it's really vulgar and you basically could see him naked..(he's got a nice ass, btw....and you could see his erm...dick.) Anyways, both movies were really disturbing...especially the American History X...it's all about racism and its harsh reality. It's kinda depressing.
They were having a party on the 6th floor, and Kit invited us up to his flat (it's soooooooooo huuuugeeeeee and nice that I wanna be his Yoko Ono...haaahahha...kidding)...and some people got seriously pissed. We made so much noise that Justice (the security gaurd..ironic, isn't it?) walked in on us and dismissed the party. d: Slept at about 3am...*shakes head*

Stayed in my room all day, anti-social me..till Esther came over and knocked on my door...then forced me to cook dinner and we ate with Saka, Shin and Yuki. Later Saka let us into her room and her wardrobe..haha....she went nuts over Ikea yesterday. (; (Saka's the girl on my floor and Shin is my crazy neighbour..they both study fashion)

And that's it, basically.Boring boring day.

Oh...do guy's nipples hurt during puberty? Coz Shin's been telling everyone it's common (his nipples are swelling..euckkk), but we all think it's just him...and he's 21, so he can't be going thru puberty now, can he? He's mad. d:
So much for enough excitement in a day... *sigh*

posted by nori_b @ 9:59 PM 0 comments

Obsessions

I've got a confession to make...I'm obsessive. About *peanut butter and jam on toast*! Hahhaa...(most of you must be rolling your eyes about now, and going like...cheyy....) Esther and me probably have had it like *everyday* for breakfast and after dinner, and my god....we're ADDICTED!!!!!! There's no way around it, really,...it's quite tragic.

Cooked rice successfully yesterday (woopee!), without the convenience of a rice-cooker around, it went terribly well. Made fried rice with it, and stir fried some vegetables (yes...I'm trying to eat my greens...). I miss my mum's cooking! Most of the time though, I'm either too lazy or tired so, I've been trying to inprovise on the canned soups...like eating it with pasta, or adding my own ingredients. Its cheap and well, it's alright. Made mistrone the other day, and it was nice to finally have something substantial that didn't come out of a can.

This week has been so hectic...
Had painting class today, and well, it's the very first time I'm seriously painting an abstract perspective. It's well, a very new approach to me, anyways. The days are passing by so fast, with homework and stuff, it's so tiring! I come home almost everyday feeling knackered (or so they say here).

I'm not feeling too well these days, and it could be that school is kinda bringing me down. It's good that we're kept busy most of the times, but seriously, there's more and more people absent because they were ill. The guy who sits in front of me keeps coughing,and it's really annoying. I've been kinda spaced-out since the beginning of the week, and somehow that makes me seem introverted (I know I'm not, but seriously, I'm very different in school here...maybe it's coz I'm still not quite accustomed with the people here). I think I've been doing pretty well, and I've got good reviews of my work. I hope I'll do alright when the assesment comes.

Sigh, it's freezing these days...the only consolation is dinner with Esther, good converstions in the tv room, hot chocolate, and of course, peanut butter and jam on toast. (: And of course, the occassional e-mails that I expect my FRIENDS to send. Haha...and well, snail mails of course...*hint*hint*

By the way, we have the most entertaining characters here: a guy who looks like John Lennon (I'm *NOT* kidding) called Kit, Pepe Le Pew (issat how it's spelled?..)- this french guy Benoir, and my crazy neighbour this japanese guy-Shin. We've got weirdos all around... can't seem to escape them, aye?! Hahaa...it's nice though...free entertainment is always good.

:: My classmate Carly says to try melted cheddar slices on toast with jam. I think she's crazy but I may just try. (:

posted by nori_b @ 12:03 AM 0 comments

Late Nights

It's 11:22pm here, and I'm still awake. I realized that I've not been blogging for what seems like forever, but gimme a break..be a little patient, I'm trying to cope. These past two weeks (wow, has it been so long already?!) have been such a blast, and I'm settling down pretty nicely here. Weekdays are spent in school, doing manual drawings, which consisted of portrait and figure drawings (which I totally *suck* at), and the last drawings on friday were of perspective (*eughhhh*, can you feel my excitement...) Had my first lecture last Tuesday, a visit to the British Museum on Wednesday, and Whitechapel Gallery (which was horrid, really....luckily we didn't have to pay to get in) on Thursday, and weekends were spent with Michelle (this sg girl I met last August) and Esther ( Taiwanese living in Toronto), shopping.

London has the best flea markets, vintage stores and what have you. It's days like these that I totally not miss being in Singapore. Got myself a pair of black suede boots, and a sheepskin jacket which cost me like £25. It was a total steal. The three of us swear that next week we're totally off shopping, coz Michelle just can't seem to stop herself, so we're going on a picnic by the London Eye or some park next week. We're totally broke and tired...haha...but so far, not have run out of things to do here, which is GREAT!

Been eating in quite a lot, and it's nice to sit in the TV room and socialize after dinner(most of the time, more socializing than actually watching tv..). It's a nice feeling when you walk into a room and people actually recognize you and say hi. The atmospehere here is nice and cosy once you get to know everyone. I've been trying to pick up a bit of Japanese and French from the people in my hall (everyone comes from different parts of the world, it's so amazing), and a few of the chaps here are really hilarious. Esther and me just like spending our time after school mingling around the halls...we must be so bored, aye? Actually, it's just very fun, coz you'd never know who'd you meet....Michelle lives quite far away in another hostel.

They FINALLY fixed the macs at the halls, so there are two of them instead of one here. YAAYYYY!!!.... but everyone's still hogging in queue here. Gotta run. Will try to update soon. (:

posted by nori_b @ 11:16 PM 0 comments