Things I Should Be Doing Instead:
Here I am, blogging while comfortably tucked in my bed, watching Simpsons, morning breath and a tinge of hunger in my tummy.
I contemplate my plans for today while I admire the new purple necklace Don got me for Christmas...(thankies babes!)
One more to hang on my tree of adornments!
And sometimes I get bored between intervals and jam awhile on my guitar, which I got on my birthday.
I have a sneaking suspicion someone's morning habits of 'jamming in pyjamas' has rubbed off on me.
Nonetheless, a bit of music in the morning never killed anyone. It's a great start to the day. Seriously.
ALTHOUGH, it is no longer morning, I confess...it's actually 12:48pm, by which time I should have showered, made some lunch and get on with the rest of my day. I should be working on my projects, which sounds a bit depressing considering it is a holiday.
So I sit and eat peanuts in bed, leaving crumbs of shells( if this even makes sense), biding my time online, catching up with old friends online, watching old movies( The Simpsons is over now).
I feel like I could pass another few hours just like this...
Running Around Headless, Wearing My Heart on My Sleeve...
Five days. I haven't heard from the blue-eyed boy. I check my inbox and it stays empty.
I sleep and wished I could sleep somemore.
Been listening to John Mayer all over again, find that I am helplessly in love with that voice, the lyrics...
And then, I found solace in one of the songs...at least the bits of it that makes sense to me...I dare not print the rest of the lyrics for I am unsure how I feel about this situation that I am in. I guess in a few more days, I will know.
'I know you've been sworn
I read your complaint
you're needing someone older
and though I've been warned to live day by day
there's something taking over
did you expect to kiss me one time
while looking at me with the same eyes ever again?
...
I understand I wasn't part of the plan
a dollar short, a minute early
but I am your man
...
let's bypass the bullshit and move on because
the minute hand moves faster than you think it does
and by no fault of yours and by no fault of mine
the bottom line is laying in the bed that we've been playing in tonight'
-John Mayer : Love Soon
Just A Few More...
Moments and hours before the beautiful blue-eyed boy goes. Flying off to where he should be and wants to be. As luck would have it, I am in the worst possible state to say goodbye- with my snotty nose, raspy voice and germ-laden being. But I did anyway, because I had to. And he knew that I wanted to.
We tried to bide our time, but I had to let him go.
We already have plans of what to do next year, but it could all go so wrong...
I wanna crawl into a hole (the same one that I always want to be in at times of despair) and sleep for the next ten days.
These will be the longest ten days in my life.
Saturday Spirals
We all got up early on Saturday morning to queue to go sliding on some silver artwork at the Tate. Had an extravagant brunch+dessert at Giraffe Cafe by the river, then braved ourselves for some major adrenalin rush. Then, we just got a bit kooky after. Heh. Pity there were no pictures of the 'helium' moments!
In the queue...Don, Me, Bisola + Krish
Our cool giraffes from our smoothie drinks...this meant I didn't have to steal them off the kids!
My little yellow friend peeking out of my Mango Mama!
...Krish looking on, not too impressed-"I'm not with this guy,I swear, I just got a seat here!"
First picture together...Me+Bis
Housemates, beheaded! Me, Bis+Krish
We got REALLY inspired by the work in the Tate! Me, Krish+Don
The Day All Chaos Landed...
Haha...I just meant Donovan..!
It's strange...but nice to have a piece of home with me... and when we reunited, it's like we never parted!
I know I don't really put up pictures of myself on my blog...but there's always some exceptions...like birthdays and Donovan!
First picture next morning! Like my new woolly top?
An accidental picture, but very cool!
This Perfect Night, I Wished You Were Wrapped In A Pretty Paper For Me To Unwrap...
And if you were the King of Carrot Flowers, I would like to be Queen...
'And this is the room
One afternoon I knew I could love you
And from above you how I sank into your soul
Into that secret place where no one dares to go...'
-Neutral Milk Hotel
One More Day...
To torrential rain, the first official cold day of winter and pre-birthday surprises! (And a blue-eyed boy.) (:
Happi-o-meter
Two more days. To my pre-birthday treat that the beautiful blue-eyed boy promised me. Three to my actual big TWO-FIVE. I'm nervous, excited, unsure. I want it to slow down so much but I want it to come so quickly and be able to savour the attention for once.
Went shopping with Donovan today, bought some new things as I am the only person ultimately who can make myself happy...and I think I am happier. Nothing's really wrong with my life, tragically...and I think that's a pretty good place to be at 25.
So Lawlee, I guess I *am* happy. (:
First Blog From Home...
Okay, so it's actually the second one... it's 3:26am and I'm not asleep as I've decided that I'm too excited to see my dear friend Donovan in a few hours! I have religiously cleaned my room, and now there's plenty of space for him!
Am chatting online (msn) with a long-lost friend, which is nice, that we're all awake at this hour(despite it being half a world away), I do marvel at technology. Though... I should be sleeping, but I guess I do better just sleeping on public transport. Just hope I don't miss my stop and that I wrap up warm for the journey ahead (Seeing that I have to leave home at 5AM to go collect him at Gatwick...)!
I am trying not to make too much noise with my bags of laundry in the meantime and playing my new Goo Goo Dolls cd. And if my room were soundproof, I'd jam on my guitar. Something tells me I will be getting a new one for my birthday...mmm...
Speaking of guitar, I found out that the beautiful blue-eyed boy spent quite a bit on my pre-birthday gift...I never knew such a small thing could cost so much (it's a wonderfully clever snazzy little guitar tuner, by the way)! Gosh..what *am* I getting myself into??????
Anyways, I LOVE this song...I think it reminds me of 5 o'clock Wednesday morning...just my beautiful blue-eyed boy, the guitar, the world and me.
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Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
