Dysfunctional Dreamer

Patience Wears Thin...

I am so tired. So exhausted from not being able to cry. My heart feels misplaced, and my body is just a foreign object, incapable of feelings. I don't feel like I know who I am anymore, sometimes I zone out as if I were a separate person, looking at me. I am three people, trying very hard to be strong. I fell down yesterday, and my right leg is bruised. But all I knew was that something was broken that is not my leg. Physical pain doesn't hurt anymore. I am so tired of wanting to pretend that everything is okay, when it obviously is not. I surround myself in music again, lyrics, and indulge in occassional calls. When I can afford the conversation. Silence is less energy-consuming. At least for now.

posted by nori_b @ 6:25 AM